Some days just don't contribute to the type of positive attitude that one with the hope we have in Christ Jesus should exhibit. Yesterday was one of those days for me. It's tiring and discouraging; it feels like nothing is turning out as I hoped it would, both in a broad sense and personally. And try as I might, I just can't change anything about the outcomes.For me, this often comes from caring too much about something. Its failure or languishing in mediocrity (one in the same in my book) that leaves me feeling as though I have failed. What is often even more frustrating about this kind of despair is that it is difficult to pull out of, and failures there lead to further frustration and discouragement.
There are days when I wonder if it's all for naught, and yesterday was one of those days. I know there's truth and hope in the Word, but it isn't ringing true for me right now, even though I know it is. I also know that this kind of despair smacks the blessings God has given me (like my wonderful wife, a job and good health to name just a few) in the face. It smacks God in the face as I get down over temporal difficulties despite knowing that I have ultimate triumph in Christ.
I know all these things...but sometimes it's still hard to see through the fog.
2 comments:
I love you baby! God has been teaching us a lot...hang in there. It has been a blessing being married to you for almost three years now...we have a lot of amazing things coming our way.
"Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint."
Isaiah 40:30-31
Your mom is hoping the sun is shining through today. Remember, when you can't trace His hand, trust His heart.
Love you,
MOM
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